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Look Back ๐ŸŒš 2022 Cancer New Moon โœจ Inner Sounds Insights


This cancer season is much more private,

more intuitive and softer than last year.

With less planetary interactions,

this week has a very open feeling to it.

Tonights new moon gives us a

pause moment

to acknowledge

how far you have come,

how much

healing work you

have done to

overcome and

break free of family patterns.

Many of us are pattern breakers.

We see the pattern of behaviors, suppression,

repression, denial, or avoidance in our family dynamics

and vow that we will not pass this down

to our community, our friends, our family.

We are here to do something different.

If that is you, it is time to

celebrate breaking free

from something that

has likely

persisted in

your family line

for a very long time.

Traditions. Habits. Expectations. Responsibilities.

Things are permanently shifting

and elevating.

Many of us have learned

how to be our own

emotional

refuge.

As adults, we have

developed a sense of emotional leadership

inside of ourselves

that knows what we need and why we need it.

This doesn't mean hardening or becoming cold.

Cancer wants us to learn the art

of holding our own emotions

as real, alive, fluid energy

that we can share authentically

with other humans

of our choosing.

As the first cardinal water sign on the astrology wheel of time,

water is fluid,

it moves by design.

Emotions are designed to be in motion,

in movement,

to be catalyzed, felt and moved through.

They aren't designed to be static.

We aren't made to be in ecstatic joy

all day every day

or leading a best life.

Living is complicated.

Humanity is suffering.

A lot of things suck and may get worse.

Cancer helps us to find healthy ways to process and move through feelings.

Create healthy emotional outlets.


If you acknowledge, see, and move into it,

there are no barriers to

all the parts of yourself.

Given the softness of this cancer season,

perhaps it is time to celebrate

how far you've come.

Where did you start your emotional journey?

Who were your primary models and what did they teach you?

I like to say, everything I learned from my family

I had to unlearn as an adult.

My family didn't hug, say I love you or I'm sorry.

We never spoke of our emotions or resolved conflict.

We avoided. Repressed. And moved on in silence.

I remember going over to a friends house one morning

for breakfast.

I was fourteen.

My friends family surrounded the table, there was freshly cooked breakfast

piping steam swirls and coffee.

People were moving and eating,

heading out on their day.

Giving little kisses on the head

and saying I love you's as they passed by.

It was just a regular old morning.

No different from any other day

for this household.

But, I was STRUCK.

Stunned.

Omg is THIS how it could be?

Like I dipped into another dimension,

another reality of what life could be like.

People just say I love you and give kisses?

Is this shit for real?

Are these people the Cleavers? What the hell.

I felt awful watching it all.

Uncomfortable, awkward, even afraid.


UGH. Please don't try and kiss my head.

Do I have to say I love you?

I CANNOT do that!

I was freaking out.

But, another part of me felt

something familiar

go off in my brain.

It was this weird kind of tingling,

primal.


A sense of tribal longing,

oh yessโ€ฆ..

this is how it could be

and

something woke up inside of me and was purring.


As much as

I hate the idea of it

I love the idea of it.

That was the moment I became a pattern breaker.

I saw something enticing and different

from what I knew and it woke up a part of me

that wanted more.

I wanted to be able to casually be affectionate,

say I love you without hesitations.


I felt a sense of belonging

and wanted more.

So, I learned.

It was awful.

Sometimes when I hugged people,

I just wanted to crawl

out of my skin.


It was excruciating.

I am pretty sure I didn't say I love you to my first partner for at least 3 years.

That was my starting line.

The beginning.

Tonight, on this chill Cancer New Moon

I will

pause

remember


listen to this sound bath

and honor that starting line.

I will look back at that

determined, bewildered,

afraid fourteen year old

and remember

the great distance

she has traveled

to get to

here.

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